“So we're speeding towards that time of year
To the days that mark that you're not here
And i think i'll want to be alone
So please understand if i don't answer the phone
i'll just sit and stare at my deep blue walls
Until i can see nothing at all...

And now my sorrow seems so far away
Until i'm taken by these bolts of pain
But i turn them off and tuck them away
'till these rainy days that make them stay
And then i'll cry... to these sad songs...

So i'm waiting for this test to end
So these lighter days can soon begin
i'll be alone but maybe more carefree
Like a kite that floats so effortlessly... ”

Azure Ray, song title “November”

I think I hate rainy autumn days. My flatmate flew home to Canada today to be with her Mum for her cancer surgery. It's all been very sudden. She'll be gone a week, all things going to plan. I think I'll be drunk all weekend. Grieve the passing of summer, accept the approaching winter, worry about my flatmate and think about my Mum and Dad a bit. It's almost been a year since Dad passed away. The passing of time shocks me. I recall again the words of Robert Frost: “In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on.”

BTW, email problems are still not fixed.

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